one week after five

My eyes open to a new morn, 

And I think you know what I know, 

Though it may not be obviously so. 

So I'll let time take its time, 

while my eyes close to pray for you.

Two you, whom I...

The night was young as I grew old,

Without sobriety, I wrote those letters.

Retreated to the room of dark and cold,

I cried on my bed out of exhaustion,

Realising I cannot go down without a fight.

***

☃️ The Snowman☃️

I have known of your name back in those days,

But I had never really seen you around before.

It was probably because we have our own groups,

Usually because of the different schools we go to,

Or that I never stayed long enough to find you.

On one of my days of birth did we meet,

That we were put in a group, all wearing glasses.

Through sharing an interesting fact did we find,

A commonality that saw you in a little shock.

There we started little talks here and there.

Ah, I didn't realize you were the one keeping beat.

Without your seeing aids, it's somewhat different,

On Christmas, you came and discussed with me,

While I almost forgot your name then,

Your eye smile has kept me alive still.

We both fell ill, one after the other,

And I only knew because I was trying to find you.

To gift you, for your day, the interest we shared,

I had to wait for my time to get better,

While I am grateful for you to be so caring.

That time, sitting next to you, you shivered,

Told me of your stage fright that I'd hope to calm.

Your group keeps asking me to take your photos,

But it was my job, even though we were a team;

Atleast we had plenty of our laughs together.

Many times you have asked me of favors,

Yes, there was a fun shuttlecock session,

But after guessing that it was you he missed,

And after hearing his blues from the past,

Could I withhold what he deserved at last?

***

🌹 The Rose 🌹

When did you come into my world,

That someone from the group brought you in?

Even though I never felt like I belonged,

Seeing you so simply fitting in with the others,

Just made me want to watch you from afar.

It was because of a strange heartbreak,

A friend was there to talk deep with me,

With meaning did he mention you,

Telling me of your sweet soul and heart,

Making me see hope out of my bitter sorrows.

I know of your voice that sings,

But our sounds and genres don't really collide.

While I can see you definitely as shy,

Your social life is much better than mine,

Wishing I was there with you every single time.

Sure, we do share our months together,

And I do enjoy the little games you play,

Making fun and annoy me every chance you can.

Maybe you do the same with others,

Though I'd still see you as someone special.

That time, we essentially had the same jacket.

Being faced to break up with you in acting,

I ran away and joined the acapella squad.

The story changed and you were to accept him;

I regretted my choice, but pretended not to care.

Honestly, I'd do anything for you,

And like I said that day, I'd treat you to anything.

You did agree, but I wonder if it will happen,

When I know your type of guy you'd like,

Or could it be someone just right before my eyes?

***

A day and two passes me by,

Still the rain around me does not cease.

It fills my heart and washes it clean,

Making me wallow in the depths of thought,

"Perhaps, we were just never meant to be".

Daylight and Rainy Days

The fifth season came by after a long night,

From spring, summer, autumn to winter.

Darkness loomed ahead and sucked my soul dry

While I saw emptiness around me through weeping.

***

🌻 The Sunflower 🌻

I saw you the first time and nothing.

The next time, you smiled as a greeting

And grinned, thinking I was someone else.

From then, I virtually cared for you little by little.

You grew in the sun room as I slept in a dark room,

While we talked in whispers across the walls.

Many times you don't see me and I'd say the same,

We're close but far - were we avoiding each other?

The doors open, but you're in a world of your own,

in music, art and dance, wearing a stern expression.

Many times you fall alone into awkwardness,

And I just wander as a shadow to a forgetful you.

I know things I don't know why I know,

The photos on your side of the wall,

Your rabbits skewers and mouse-like singing,

That bitter and crunchy feeling of unripe avocados.

Sharing the same personality, you, a mystery to me.

School, friends we care for, our confusion,

We opened up and found our distinctness;

You were no dodgy kid I would talk blue things to.

Double you; why, did you play the harp strings,

Like an angel, giving me good news in melodies?

That I had nothing except teasings for you,

And the special family presence of you being there.

A smile of sweetness like from a warm cosy bed,

You were the sunshine, a radiance through the night.

A rainbow of hope that appears from these tears,

You were busy and so I had to leave you alone.

The day came when the weather changed,

As fires broke out, the bridge between us crumbled, 

which no smile could save.

I called out to you, distanced by our islands,

But you turned, hid away, never to be seen again.

***

☁️ The Cloud ☁️

You were there with charisma;

I just never thought of looking up to you.

A simple start to our conversation,

Made you rain and thunder upon me.

The same tunes, the similar stories,

Maybe we were selfish to a point,

Where we talked too much about ourselves.

Our emotions expressed - did we care about others?

Someone to depend on, that you trusted;

A friend so close, the world saw you go together.

They knew your weather, being by your side,

But all this lost and for three nights, you hailed on.

Ballads were sang aloud when no one was home.

Your hands covered your face, you contemplated.

The bread, you ate at late night with such a sad face,

Told you to sleep; that melancholy will grow you.

Nostalgia and reverie ideally fill journal entries,

That trust, secrets could be kept in the cloud.

Reality hits and imagination fails to be a friend,

A scrapbook filled, negative lyrics in empty spaces.

Introversion made you sick with spring allergies,

Obsessions made us stressed out in society.

Solitude or cityscapes was where we differed,

But both a place of freedom for things in our hearts.

You were cold, never letting a little sunlight in,

Why not embrace your artistic talent with romance?

Not to compare, but instead of being idle over time,

Let's create a concert of stupidity for our laughter.

We could spend our days talking in length,

Through letters, reminiscence comes to and fro.

You could only watch me from afar as you floated away with the stormy winds,

While I struggled under the earth's caliginous arm.

***

I bid my farewells; adieu to the neighbouring you.

I won't forget, thanking Him for bringing us together;

Keeping our memories, though our paths seperated,

Taking steps apart, till the sunshower comes again.

I'll always still be there for you, 

Even if you won't be present anymore,

Unless the night swallows me up,

And puts me to an eternal slumber forever.

The Snow Flower Princess

As the day nears its end,

Let me not forget your day,

And I hope it was a happy one.

Though I may never see you in person,

I do believe you are really there,

And not simply some character in my game.

You both know the cherry blossoms.

While she shows more of her elegance,

You are the fluffy type of person.

The colour given to you is of the white snow,

From white comes all the colours of the rainbow,

And you are what gives them light to me.

Another year and you'll be in a new decade,

Where I hope you keep this easygoing nature,

And maybe some day we may meet.

For now, I will love and keep supporting you.

Bubble through your life and I'll reply,

But sleep, dear little flower princess.

May you rest well and not wither away.

A Nickel Letter

To a dear little one,

I ought to tell you clear,

Before the end of this letter,

That you and I are very different.

Said hi to you for fun,

Mostly because you were near,

But I thought "I'll forget her",

And off you go; there you went.

Then was the day of the sun,

We sat together to hear,

Thinking "Have I met her?"

Found out you were yesterday in the present.

I prefer when you had none.

Before I did have some fear,

But seeing after was better,

So a connection then was sent.

Thus our conversation begun,

I got to know you as a peer,

And maybe I did upset her,

Though you were fine and it was not my intent.

I kind of wanted to run,

Seeing you were close to one for career,

But I knew I should let her,

Till you told me you were not for their scent.

Eating out was something you spun,

Asking if I had a holiday that will appear,

And while someone kept saying "Get her",

I was not sure what you truly meant.

We both had down times that weighed a ton.

While I want to be there when things are severe,

These times right now are too much pressure,

Even though I wish I could make you content.

I guess now I'm done,

It's nice if you made it to the rear.

The next time I see you, I may get redder,

For all the time together we have spent.

 

 

Hello World 2.0

Many reasons are there to start anew,

Perhaps I guess an update was due.

Whatever happened then, I do not remember,

But May be time to let go and surrender.

So I bid the new day a good morning,

And hello to the world once again.